So basically, today has sucked. Plain and short. It's sucked. And keeps sucking more. It's been a hard day. I've been trying to make movements towards where I belong and it seems just as I make a large step, a step that's going to make a difference, a step that was hard to take, there are several boulder's that are right in the way just waiting to stop me. It's quite ironic how right after I take a step like I did earlier today to move towards where I belong these things happen. I've always heard how Satan will try to draw God's believers away from him and ya know, I really believe that. Over the past year I believe that I've seen the happen first hand. Not just to me, but a couple of close friends of mine as well. Sadly, several times when this has happened to me, I let Satan win and give in. I let him draw me away from God and pull me even further down than I was before. It seems every time this happens it's harder and harder to get back up. There isn't a single day where I honestly feel like living. I feel like such an emo kid saying this but I don't look forward to life. I think of our life and world as a piece of crap. I can't wait to die and get off this world. I believe I'll be going to a better place.
Here is a verse which I have been using to help remind me of where I will truly find help in my times of need. Sadly, mountains are hard to climb so even though it is God, it still wont be easy.
