12/26/09

Today I have nothing that will compare my post for yesterday. Today has been quite uneventful but there has been a couple bumps. This evening has been the highlight of my day for sure though. Tonight I hung out with my friend Hawk and played some cards with my family then did some riding. While out riding I got some stuff done I had never done before which always feels amazing. Progression is such an awesome feeling in every aspect of life. It's what keeps me going. Hawk, however, didn't progress much tonight haha. Instead he chose not to progress tonight. Tonight he had a motivator for tomorrow's session haha.

I can't think of much more to write about tonight. Tomorrow is going to be an exciting day though. Expect some stories tomorrow night along with some pictures and possibly video.

Justin

Random Christmas Urge/Christmas Thoughts

So, today, Christmas 09', I had the urge so start a blog. Something I can use to empty my brain into each day. I plan to basically use it as a diary, only it's going to be public. Lately I have had lots of my mind. Not necessarily bad things, or things that are directly related to me. My minds has just been running. I've wanted something to release it all into and I'm hoping to find that in this. Maybe through I can find a stress reliever and some joy while providing you entertainment and letting you into my head. I'm not sure who you are because as of now, not a single soul knows about this. I don't know how far I'll go with this. We'll see.

Now, I'm going to talk about my Christmas.

This Christmas was different for me than most, just like this whole year has been. This Christmas money for me and my whole family was pretty tight. My parents still freaking showered me with presents but not to the extent that they normally do for me and my sister. The majority of the stuff I got wasn't even stuff I really wanted or needed either. And you know what, I'm thankful for this. This helped remind me how presents aren't what Christmas is about. It's about Christ, and when he was born. He was the ultimate present to us. I laid in bed for probably 2 hours this afternoon just pondering on this. This led me to countless questions and thoughts. Here are a few.

Why would God send his son simply to die for us? I don't have any kids yet but I know if I did, doing anything of this sort would absolutely break my heart. And it's not like were worth anything. Think about it, every one of us, are freaking scumbags. We are all sinners, and when you think about how many things we do against God, why does he love us? How could he love us? This I don't get. Why did God even create the world? God knows everything so I imagine when he created the world, he knew what would happen. He knew we would become sinners. He knew I would turn my back on him. He knew I wouldn't give him the respect he deserves. He knew I would be stupid. He knew every single screw up I would do. He even knew I would murder his son and his perfect, perfect son, would die for me, somebody who deserves nothing more than Hell. I don't understand what could make any being want to ever do a thing like this. However I'm glad that I can't understand God because if he's the ruler of everything and I can understand how he works why couldn't I be God? These are just some questions I'm going to ask him as soon as I get to Heaven one day.

This is why I'm thankful for my parents not COMPLETELY showering me with gifts because it made me God conscious today. It made me stop and give thanks for what today really means.

Now that I'm done with that I'll go onto some other stuff about my day.

Today I got to spend lots of time with my Grandparents which was awesome. They're so cool. They also gave me some awesome presents today. I would have to say that the highlight of my day though would have to be right now. Right now my mind is running through how God sent Jesus in such a humble way, a little baby, to rescue every human for eternity if they chose to follow him. This day, Christmas, is about the birth of Jesus, and I'm giving thanks to him. I hope you all remembered what today was truly about.

I also hope you got some great presents though :).

I am going to try to make a post everyday so check back if you would like.

Justin